Don't Date Guys, Date Ana!

SO, I'm going to be staying with friends this entire weekend at my best friends college. I wonder how much people are going to harass me and Monica about eating. Hopefully not too much. One of my friends has started to say she thinks I really have a problem because I was explaining how Ana is a control issue for me. But for the most part I haven't really been given a hard time about it. Most people don't know. I always make up great stories to people about what I've eaten. Or my favorite, especially when I smoke with people and they start to say they have the munchies I always play along. I say something like yeah I can't wait to get home, I'm so hungry, I'm going to cook some chicken and rice. Or I can't wait to eat these cookies I have at home. Stuff like that. It makes me feel like I'm a normal person lol. But Angie says she wants to join Ana too, and nicki called me last night talking about she wants to loose weight now too (which is ridiculous because she weighs nearly 10 pounds less than I do) so maybe everyone is going to jump aboard.

Would I recommend Ana to my friends? Honestly? I would. To some of them. Yes, I do get a little worried about how caught up I'm getting with it but they are much worse things we could all be caught up in. Like these fucking asshole boys that consume our lives, tear down our self esteem and destroy our focus. Ana teaches you other people's dissapointments don't matter. You learn to count on yourself. You learn you can make your own happiness. Plus all the anger and sadness you feel can be channeled into working hard towards Ana, and therefore yourself. Angry because the love of your life just put up new pics with this new girl on facebook? Don't punch the wall, don't cry, don't send angry texts. Instead work out. Exercise releases endorphins and removes the bad chemicals stress puts in your body. When you get stressed out, your flight-or-fight response kicks in except you don't actually fight or run away to burn off that extra produced energy. So it sits in your body and literally makes you sick. Exercise works that all off and makes you feel happy. Plus as soon as you start seeing results, you will care less and less about the assholes fucking you over.

So if relationships just aren't working out for you right now, don't date men. Date Ana! She will never ever let you down!

So anyway,  yesterday not so good.... I ate:

Go Lean Crunch (1/2 cup) with skim 1/4 cup milk- ~115
Fruit and Yogurt Parfait w low fat granola - 190
Granola bar- 110

Thats all I ate all day and I planned to keep it that way but I caved to the munchies when I got home and between 10pm-1am I ate

Go Lean Crunch (1/2 cup) with skim 1/4 cup milk- 115
Captain crunch- 2 cups with skim milk- approx- 260
Rasin Bran- 1/2 cup with skim milk- 115
I also had a few sips of orange juice and two percent milk so lets say thats about 50

So thats a total of 850. Not as bad as I thought but still too much. Wayyyy too much. Captain Crunch is ridiculous. Theres no way I should be eating that. It has no nutritional value. UGHHH. I really should've stayed at my original 315. 315 is good. 850 is fucking terrible. 850 IS NOT ANA! Atleast not the level of Ana I aspire to.

Today I drank a muscle milk which I lovveeee. 220 calories and tons and tons of protein. I also had 1/4 pound of lean turkey slices which are 30 calories per ounce and there are 4 ounces to a pound so thats 120. So I'm at 340 for the day and NO MORE EATING!!!! Only coffee. Of course lol.

I also didn't work out at all yesterday. I walked from my house to the Fordham station which is like 1.5 miles so I guess atleast thats a little exercise. And I also walked up the stairs instead of taking the elevator (I live on 10). But baddddd of me to skip an entire day of working out.

I have dance next so we do a little work out there. Then I have to babysit and I definetely will be able to fit in some exercise then.